nagging at 2:00am

I'm having the forth cup of tea today, downstairs is still talking aloud. Although i can't hear clearly what they are talking, they are making nosie anyway. Stomach isn't feeling comfortable, so i am treating myself with a cup of tea and hopefully it works.

MSN sucks today, i downloaded two different edition, unfortunately they are all not working well. Now, i am trying the third time. God bless me!

Now i am listening to a song named '此刻，你心里想起谁？'it's not a proper song to listen to at 2:17am alone. It made me feel sick and blue, but i've kept listening to it for almost 30 mins already. hehe! that's me!!

It's a bit cold here, and i am hugging a hot water bottle. I guess i really can't live without it in this chilly night. Hate being alone at this moment, i'm missing a warm hug or a sweet morning kiss and missing my bf's warm hands which will hold mine tightly whenever i am feeling chilly. It's great to be loved, but it's really sad to be away from your beloved. Both me and him are trying hard to get over this rocky time. We are expecting that moment to be together again, but.......will that moment come? i am getting lost during this long long waiting. I began to doubt our future and began to get confused about the meaning of love. One night, i cried to him and said that i can't stand this pain any more. He didn't say anything except sorry to me. It's not his fault,yet not mine either. Love doesn't only mean enjoying,but also suffering.

Eileen is right upstair doing the same thing as me now, blogging and music. We are also chatting at yahoo now. I am blogging whilst talking to her and i guess she 's doing the same thing as me. :) She is really like a sweet younger sister of mine.

Just said bye to her and now i am back to here.

I met tiger online yesterday night, and talked to him in an extremely cold way. Don't know why, i suddently got a bad mood so that i left him without saying too much. We haven't met each other online for several days, and he was busy with a big experiement and i was busy with....what? hehe, i acutally did nothing with my study. I have to do some real work from tomorrow, HAVE TO!!!! He is a nice guy who always takes good care of me online. He won't leave me alone if i asked him to stay with me. But i know i can't rely too much on him, cause we are living different lives and in different countries. He is a nice big brother, but he will only be with me online. Perhaps,that's the saddest thing of being too close to a cyber-friend. :(

3:20am ,i am feeling tired already.

Going to sleep now, Good night!